Day 133: motivation

School started for 5 weeks. To be honest, I've been losing my motivation in doing well in my classes, knowing that I am in a comfort zone for my gpa. Even at the beginning of the semester, I keep telling myself... I have no excuse to do bad or slack because of the credit load I'm taking; I need to do well in school to raise my gpa to make myself more competitive for applications. I want to get into grad school and DI programs. I want so many things to happen... but, even how much I tell myself I need to work hard, I just keep slacking and procrastinating.

I just wonder where can I find back that motivation. Just got back my exam and I didn't do well at all, barely made it. I'd studied 24/7 for the midterm, but I still screwed up. Starting when that things just don't stick in my head. I'm losing my concentration on so many things when I thought I got them.

After talking to my friend, I found a little bit back. I can't take things for granted. I need to make changes starting now. I need to scarifies something in order to reach my goal and that starts now...